Waiting by the computer
Waiting by the computer
He said he would call
She is impatient
“Where is daddy? Mummy I want to talk to daddy”
When was the last time she spoke to him?
I can’t remember
When was the last time she saw him?
Was it in spring? I remember him coming in spring
No it was during the summer!
I remember now. It was in August
It was summer then, warm and sunny
Now the snow is falling and it is cold
She has been waiting for over an hour
It is time for her to go to bed
“Just a little bit longer mummy, please”
I tell her that daddy’s computer must be broken
I tell her daddy loves her very much
She gets angry with me
She seems to blame me for him not being there
Like I could wave a magic wand and make him appear if only I wanted to
She cried herself to sleep that night
My heart broke once again
Later I get a text message from him
“Hi, sorry. I’ve been working all afternoon. Apologies for not letting you know before”
He is always saying sorry
It is easy for him
He doesn’t have to watch her cry
